May 2013
11 posts
fuck not again...
why must these thoughts keep coming back?!
yesterday was such a beautiful night
:’))))
my life is complete omg
i’m fangirling so hard
THEY'RE SO CUTE I CAN'T UGH
It really bugs me how I’m being treated like a prisoner; every move I make it watched, judged and criticized. I hate going home now because I feel like I’m trapped in a dungeon, hence why I like going to school: escape. Every time I come home, feelings of irritability and frustration burden me. I am so jealous of my peers who love going home. Home to them is a place where they can relax and do...
who’s messaging me on tumblr tho
i miss your touch tho
it's just a mindset that needs to be corrected
it's back.
i knew this break was temporary.
that was some scary shit LOL
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April 2013
45 posts
k i kinda miss u doe
FUCK FEELINGS
can i please make ultimate………
dear mom
i honestly try to tell you shit, but you just don’t get it and you start assuming other things and coming to conclusions even though i’m not done explaining.
it’s hard i know. you have a daughter with down syndrome and now you discover your other daughter is also pretty fucked up.
man. i’m so sorry i let you down.
i don’t even know if i want to let you into my...
man i know i’m supposed to see the bright side of things but…
i’m trying and
life
still
sucks
LIKE
I HAVE SO MUCH BAD LUCKY WHYYYY
WHYYYYYYY
WHAT HAPPENEDDD
fucking law of attraction probaby
stupid careers
this physical pain LOL
called kids help phone
actually kinda helped LOL
scared for monday
it's always this time...
i should sleep earlier, maybe then i’ll be able to avoid unnecessary thoughts
today was a good day!
just occurred to me that we'll never talk unless i...
well what am i expecting LOL .
when we were together you barely started conversations anyway. (but i do acknowledge the fact that sometimes you did)
i think i have my head in the clouds.
well… i guess we’re just gonna drift further and further apart.
man i should just suck it up and deal with my issues
it’s unfair of me to place the burden on other people as well.
like i can’t expect people to care about my issues when they have their own right? how selfish of me to expect people to help me through my problems or like try to solve them.
my life. my problems. my problem.
i really need to stop depending on other people and focus...
thinking optimistically actually works :)
today was actually the best day!
my family ACTUALLY seemed like a family today!
couldn’t be happier :D
and in the end we finally have a normal...
about weed. LOL…..
you better be missing me.
L
O
L
.
lol i thought i was okay and got over it
well jk no
whyd you decide to end it tho? was it cuz you lost feelings?
noo, i felt it wasnt right cuz i kept on telling myself to do things, and to talk to you more and yah, but i still wouldn’t, and i couldn’t really connect with you either yah
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY UGH
i miss you
why
like
sajgkjgkasjgag
fuck.
seeing him today tho
stay strong nigga
don’t cry
pls
i’m slipping off the edge
i’m hanging by a thread
i wanna start this over again…
why can’t i be thankful for the fact that i have a life to live.
why must i think so low of it.
i wish i had something to live for l0l
why am i so messed up
i’m like a psychopath
someone warn the cops before i kill someone
omg
so like the sob i am, i played piano. how dramatic right? just like those people in the movies after they suffer a break up.
i was actually fine, like playing piano made me release my soul and i felt so relaxed and carefree.
but then i played ‘when you’re gone’ by avril lavigne, and i started bawling like a baby.
damn like i never knew music would move me so much LOL....
i guess this is ‘experience’
oh
so my mom kind of put in effort to see if i was okay
“don’t worry you don’t have to be smart okay no pressure”
oh thanks
LOL
.
.
.
i give up
but at least i give props to my mom for trying to understand me i guess… like she noticed there was something wrong with me
well
she noticed after i cried ahahHAHAHA
but dad
i don’t even know what to say...
lol
i remember how yesterday i asked him
“how do you think we’re working out?”
and he said
“uhhh idk Lol brb”
wow man i mean, you brb a lot
more self conflicts:
“you’re so clingy give him space”
“why should he talk to you if you don’t talk to him”
“maybe you’re not putting in enough effort”
“maybe...
well time to eat and cry okay fuck you...
we don't even talk...
“hiii!”
“hi”
“i didnt get to see you much today :(“
“ya Lol brb shower”
“okie”
“back”
“hiii whatcha doing?”
“homework Lol brb”
“okk”
“okay i’m sleepy going to sleep goodnight! :)”
me:...
i hate you
i hate you for taking away the only thing i ever had
taking away my phone, ipod, laptop is not gonna make me sleep earlier you fucker.
i have insomnia.
i hate you.
you’re dangerous
and could you just stay away from me
i was actually happy for that week you went to hong kong, i finally felt relaxed at home
even though i know i can take you easily
you still scare me shitless
can...
lol but i am an idiot for expecting people to care
even if a 100 people cared, i don’t think anyone could fix me
i’m in too deep
shut up you gay motherfucker
lol so i kinda broke down when my mom talked to me.
she didn’t even understand me at all.
well, i don’t blame her because i barely told her anything.
i chose not to tell her because although she was finally sympathetic enough to care, how she thought she knew me was way off reality.
i don’t trust her because it’s been 3 years i’ve been in this state, and she still...
if i died right now, no one would even know i was...
bitch ate my cookies LOL
“can i have some?” “ya you can have a bit”
-eats half of what i had-
oh
well
thanks for asking if you could eat that much wow.
that was like
75 cents LOL
and you're so fucking nosy
stop trying to look at my phone when i’m texting
that’s rude.
it’s none of your business ok
i don't even understand why you're so against us
it’s been like 5 months okay, aren’t you getting tired of making those same stupid comments. some of them are pretty offensive too.
like i don’t mind being teased or whatever because it’s a joke, but it feels like you’re finding every opportunity to crush my soul or something.
“to be honest i never thought you’d be able to find a guy that could handle...
omg fuck im gonna puke i feel so sick LOL
ok
whew
staying up late
actually not that late
cuz its not an all nighter but
yea
still
im
fucking
tired
dammit
when does this workload end shit
i have no time for sleep
well...
guess i just overreact or something
because today we were perfectly fine
or maybe he have like those gay up and downs like other ‘relationships’ have
omg.
LOL
dear my niggas
i’m so sorry i’ve been so depressing lately.
i don’t know what comes over me.
but at the end of the day, i know i have you guys.
do i sound gay? it’s true though
i am actually so blessed to have you guys as friends.
never have i met anyone so understanding, loyal, trustworthy as you guys.
y’all are beautiful inside and out ;)
omg tearing up because i’m so...
i really want to drink bleach and die
